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Dienstag, 3. Mai 2011

Back in Germany, JUNE Popteen, Gyaru secrets and other stuff

First of all Hello my Dear Readers.
Im back in Germany now and i feel really depressed
Unfortunatly i had a shock when i looked on the Community G_s (  ゚ ▽ ゚ ;)
Actually i was scared that one day i would see a picture of me there
but actually i thought this community is about make up and style (maybe i got it wrong?).
Anyway there was this picture of me and it was about my "love life"?!
Okok !! SHOCK !!(♛ฺД♛ฺ)
Well, i really dont know what to say about it or about the comments to this secret.
Just it was really shocking.
People talking and judge me even if they dont know me in real or anything which really hurt sometimes. 
BUT~ Now i can understand others who also were judged by mostly anonymious? persons.(´、ゝ`)

Still i think for people who only know my Blog it might look like it happened fast but you dont know the back story, sorry. And im not going to tell it because i think its a little bit to private.ヽ(゚◇゚ )ノ

Also people wrote they were dissappointed of me?~ Then im SORRY!but
Mmmh you think i feel super good now?Or my sadness was just a JOKE?? I still feel broken about my old boyfriend which i said in another entry but he and me talked a long time about it.We are friends now, which made me really happy!ありがとう、さとる!
But i still feel not so ready to moving on and Yusuke and me take it easy, ok?(ゝ`ω´-) Just for your understanding, 
I dont feel like we are a ' Complete' couple yet.p(`ε´q)
We are working on it, also he had a girlfriend some time ago but they broke up.For a long time we were there for eachother and its not about exchanging japanese boyfriends.( ☣◞౪◟☣)
In my life i had till now only  boyfriends. One was German and one was japanese.
Yusuke just made me happy in this sad time!!!!
He is so so so IMPORTANT for me! 
I trust him and love him, he is always there for me and Im there for him.
I hope we can marry soon, and be together forever!
Actually I always hoped that Yusuke and me will be together, now we are and its a good feeling!!! I cant imagine to be without him anymore now.
Also im not a Weeboo!♪(。◕ฺˇε ˇ◕ฺ。)♡
I was in Japan already 4 times now. I know in Tokyo is not everything FUN or ENYOJMENT
And Yes i want to live there someday but not FOREVER, because i also like Germany and i get sick of the japanese stress sometimes.

Anyway, what  wanted to say is that im sorry i made you think bad of me. Im not like that!Please dont try to judge me like this, it makes me kind of sad.‎( °、°) 
 really say sorry, i also think my behaviour was not right in this case but i think everybody does mistake, right? And we can learn from it hopefully :) Actually  want to say thanks to the secret that it reminds me of that what is really important! THANKS~ 
But next time, you can write me your opinion on my BLOG OK? Then we can talk about it maybe and exchange opinions.

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I hope you still continue to read my blog but only if you want of course!

Now some pictures of the thngs i bought in Japan!
I also have some pictures of sightseeing but i dont feel like posting them now... Maybe later when i feel better about it.

Sorry for the bad pictures, I just made them with my normal camera for you with the flash (just a short prieview).The pictures are from the new magazine of june? I think so www







  

Cutest English !!! GAT MY CAMERAAA :D














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Then i pimped up my Cecil Mc Bee bag !! ww





This Hello Kitty present the Working partner of Yusuke gave me!! She was so lovely!!!




Then i bought some make up! But i wish i could buy some more...But no money....><





These shoes are from the brand Esperanza! I have to say i dont know if its a good or a cheap brand but the shoes were around 10,000 yen!
I like them but it looks like they are not for the normal life...More like Model shoes or something.><




This cute watch Yusuke bought for me in Odaiba :) I really liked ths city!! Maybe i will show pictures of it later to yoou...





Okay~ that is all for now cuties! And i want to apologize again for what i did. Also to myself.SΟЯЯΥ_φ(・益q。`)・゚・o。
I have to make my thoughts, soul and head clear, hopefully i can!
I dont want to appear on this community site Ever again.I dont feel comfortable about it.‎( °、°)
The only positiv aspect now is that

I WILL GO TO JAPAN IN AROUND 3 MONTHS LATER!!:)
But first i have to study for school now and work hard for it to earn money!
またね~And take care of yourselfs and dont let you get down by anybody!!
ちゅ~

My life isn't like that as it was before. What can i do now?
 
PS: And for the people who wrote like that: " (her current pick is ... okay. her old boyfriend is disgusting..)" and ANONYM!
i want to say i hate that! i reallly HATE it! DO NOT INSULT MY FRIENDS ok?! They did nothing wrong and for me wether Satoru or Yusuke are disgusting or look like a girl. If its your opinion, FINE you can think it but dont write such mean things in the web where they cant defend thereselfes!!! SO MEAN and UNFAIR! I never write about somebody he/she is disgusting! what a mean shitty thing!
Or dont write your comments Anonym, then i can tell you my opinion about you! 
THANKS!!!

Mittwoch, 6. April 2011

Long time no post! SORRY and im single (  ゚ ▽ ゚ ;) Where is my Happy End?!

Hello cuties~

Im sorry that i didnt write on my blog for one month i think!(>へ<。)
But unfortunatly many happened! 
For example my boyfriend broke up with me last week~
Actually it was the most shocking moment i rememeber since now (♛ฺД♛ฺ)
I was really overextended?:D It was so suddenly and first i was not sad >< I dont know why but later on i was super hyper much sad!!。・゚゚・(≧д≦)・゚゚・。 When i realized it・・・・
Even now im sad when i think about our memories we had together;;
We were a couple for more than 1 year and i thought its forever・・・
Naive thinking、Right?
The most worse thing is that we could have meet in around 10 days!
I wanted to go to okinawa and he also said to me that i can pack my suitcase already・・・  
First i was disappointed that i cannot go to tokyo but also i was happy to see him so much, it would be my first time there (ノ◇≦。)

Anyways, he said to me things like : We are finished forever or i dont have love for you anymore, which really hurt me( ゚,_ゝ゚)
I dont blame only him for it~ We both did mistakes i know it also the distance is/was our problem>< He said he is shit but i dont think so.
I still have love for him even if i just stopped to wear our engagement ring ;;
I want to forget him but it is impossible because EVERYTHING, reminds me of him...
Im happy my family&friends care for me^^
There is also somebody who is always there for me <3
THANKYOU!


I hope someday he will understand that i love him always and i wish i could turn back the time and make everything better・・・・
I feel like it was my faultΣ(・艸・。)・・・(=艸=。)ウゥ・・。・゚(>艸<。)゚・。うえぇえぇん!!

Anyway!! Sorry for this entry, i hope i didnt bored you><;
I just wanted to make things clear for myself^^
Also there are some positiv aspects like that i will go to tokyo in around 2 weeks :)
I hope it will be fun^^;
Also i realized that i HAVE to STUDY MORE! He was right when he said i have no discipline? Sorry Satoru・・・・ m(_ _)m I was not good always to you><
I will start to study for myself then i hopefully can go to university to tokyo ;;
I hope he can see someday i did grow up...Not only for me, also for him
To think about yourself('s future) is the most important、I know but you also have people who you love and for them you should also care i think ;)



Thats all for now my lovley followers :)
Hope you have great hot spring days with lots of fun!!
またね~☆彡



PS: I avoid looking at our pictures because it makes me cry always again.

Sonntag, 13. März 2011

こんばんは~・・・・

Hello cuties~

You all might know about the situation in japan・・・

The day when it happen i had normal school

So i saw it in news when i came home・・・・><

I was so shocked about it and worried about my friends

and also my boyfriend(ノω・、) ウゥ・・ He lives on okinawa

But still i cared about him and he didnt send me a mail
Or anything!! So i called him and cried at phone(ノ◇≦。)

But he was surprised and told me everything is ok!

Okinawa is save! I was SO happyー(´・ω・`)

Still in other cities like sendai its so horrible・・・・

 I just cant find words for it( ゚,_ゝ゚)

Also i dont know if i can go to japan in april now T T
My mom and sisters also care about it and their friends there・・・

SO BAD EVERYTHING><
I hope japan is better soon(>へ<。)

I pray for it !!!


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Okie- these days i really needed some distraction (ノω・、) 

So i decided to make some pictures!

Also i was shopping with my dad and brother ;)




The mickey mouse ears were actually my Carneval costume Haha~

These pink mickey-ears are from TOKYO DISNEYLAND❤
Sorry for my bad face haha><





Sometimes i really dont like my face ・・・ヽ(゚◇゚ )ノ


Okay~ now talking about my new cloth :)
Its by h&m
A jumpsuit! I really like it and i want
To wear it in japan><
Sorry for bad quality~It was late already・・・

My brother said it looks like sleepwear and my dad said its actually cute!www
So what do you think about it?:) I will make better pictures soon(´・ω・`)
I also found this picture! i want thiiiiis><
Its a little bit same like mine
But it has short pants><
かわいい・・・



I also want the shoes of the right girl!
But i dont know the name・・・・
Clogs?!
Anyway i love them!
I saw them last summer in tokyo so often
Now i regret that i didnt buy them。・゚・(*ノ益`*)・゚・。
Also i love her Clothes!



Hairstyles which i adore :

Randon stuff:
I just love the watch!!





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Okie~Thats all for now!
Thanks for reading my blog 
And pray for japan and their people(>へ<。)
I send LOVE and HOPE to japan><
+゚*。:゚+o[\/]oω`。).+゚*。:゚+
またね~